♥ i want to spread my wings
21 jan 1991
i am running mylife with His bless, Alhamdulillah!
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one portable, small sewing machine
three pink, 3D wall-clock
and, those are HOPEs :)
"Dan milik Allah kerajaan langit dan bumi.
dan pada hari terjadinya kiamat, akan rugilah pada hari itu orang-orang yang mengerjakan kebatilan (dosa)."
Today we, most of my batch-mates had remedial for OSCE. We already had 11 or 12 stations yesterday and I stucked for two stations; the intramuscular injection as well as wound suturing.
Yeah, I was sooo nervous so I hold the needle-holder wrongly and Dr. B recognized that. Dang. However she makes me even more trembling .
After 9 minutes, I finished the task, to suture a 3cm cut wound and she said, "Do you know what is your mistake?"
Of course I don't have courage to speak.
"You should not touch the sterile drape"
and I'm really worried if I can be failed because of that reason.
A fail in remedial OSCE meaning I have to repeat all stations for next years. It is really scared-me-to-death.
So I return home with sorrow and grieve. Helpless. Heartless. I called my mum, she asked me to be patient and strong. He sent SMSs , gave some motivation-speech. His mum also do the same thing and she taught me a du'aa.
"Hasbiyallah, 'alaihi tawakkaltu wa huwa rabbul 'arsyil 'azhim"
Then, I logged in my facebook account, and found this;
tawakkul (trusting and relying on Allah) is realizing that our Protector has a plan for us. Tawakkul is having complete trust that Allah’s plan is the best plan. Tawakkul is having full faith that Allah will take care of you—even when things look impossible. (read here)
and leading me to;
Tawwakul is not an act of the limbs—it is an act of the heart. And so while the limbs are striving hard, the heart is completely reliant on Allah. This means whatever the outcome of the limbs’ striving, the heart will be completely satisfied, knowing that it is the flawless decision of Allah.
But in order to reach this level, one must hold on to hope, strive with the limbs, and let go with the heart. (read here)
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