[22 wishes]

i am 22 after all

assalamu'alaikum,


>:(

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assalamu'alaikum,

bila saya rasa penat, keluarga sgt memberi inspirasi supaya terus kuat utk berdiri. rasanya, pengorbanan mak dan abah saya tak terlawan dgn hanya sedikit kepenatan yg saya rasai sekarang. cinta dan kasih sayang mereka sgt tidak terjangkau luasnya. dan saya harap, saya mampu membalas segala cinta yg dicurahkan ke atas saya.

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assalamu'alaikum,

Doc Ita, my Public Health lecturer once said, if we want to change the world, it started with ourselves. do consistently the small things by using our effort. then, the world will change slowly, if and only if each of us do the same thing.

kita hidup dengan kasih sayang. bahkan, kasih sayang inilah yang membuatkan kehidupan kita lebih bermakna dan bersemangat. well, saya tak specific kan pada kasih sayang sesama kekasih. tak kenal maka tak cinta. walaupun pada dasar perkenalan itu, iyalah, mana ada manusia yang pertama kali jumpa terus peluk cium bagai nak rak. mungkin ada, tapi jarang kot. adakah anda? yang pasti bukan saya. dalam sejarah hidup, siapa saja yang pertama kali jumpa saya mesti, wajib, mengatakan saya nampak sombong dan kerek. tapi, hakikatnya salah sama sekali. tapi takpe, saya maafkan. hehe :')

pernah tak anda jumpa dengan insan yang miskin kasih sayang?

sedih kan? erm kalau lah si dia tahu betapa indahnya bila diri kita disayangi dan dirindui. seronoknya rasa bila ada sahabat mengatakan "oh diyan! rinduuuuuu sangat kat awak!" :)

ataupun, "along, emak rindu la kat kamu. bulan 11 ni nak balik rumah tak? nanti mak cakap kat abah" :D oh ini sangat mengujakan, of course, bila abah nak support flight ticket. hehe oh sila abaikan part mata duitan itu. yang penting ialah bahagian rindu rinduan seorang ibu. :')

kebanyakan topic yang saya belajar ada kitaran, a.k.a. cycle. contohnya, menstrual cycle, or nitrogen cycle. begitu juga dengan hidup kita. sunnatullah. pernah dgr kan pasal hidup ini ibarat roda. ada kalanya kita dibawah, kadang kala kita di atas.

give and take. the more we give, the more we will get in return.

tak rugi rasanya utk menunjukkan kasih sayang kpd insan lain. apalah salahnya mengasihi manusia di sekeliling kita. hati gembira, sahabat pun meredhai kita. :)

sebenarnya bukan susah nak dapatkan keredhaan manusia. dgn harapan, Allah meredhai kita juga. ameen. dugaan sentiasa ada, tapi kasih sayang Allah juga kan sentiasa mengiringi hambaNya. :)


we all have stories we will never tell. its true, but would you have any intention to change the stories of your future-life?

anda yang menentukan seperti apakah titik perubahan yang anda inginkan. :)


oh yes. I LOVE YOU! :)

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assalamu'alaikum,

saya sedang mencari identiti. normal lah kan bagi remaja yg muda belia macam saya ni kan. sebenarnya, selama ni saya tak perasan pun yang saya ada masalah dalam mencari identiti diri. biasanya bila saya dgr kawan-kawan gosip bersembang pasal identiti, saya cuma fikir, "identiti? nasib baiklah aku ni normal. takde masalah identiti diri".

almaklumlah, di usia remaja ni, kita lebih dekat dan rapat dgn rakan sebaya. lebih-lebih lagi kalau form 1 dah menginap di asrama, macam saya. :')

ok, first time kalimah "mencari identiti" ini menerjah pendengaran saya ialah ketika di form4? atau form5? salah satu lah. saya dah kurang ingat. *loser*

masa tu saya memang rapat dengan senior. :D haha *oh rindu sangat dgn akak sbpis batch spm06 :')

kiranya saya fikir memang saya dah berjaya menempuhi tahap pencarian identiti la masa sekolah menengah tu. so, saya sempoi je.

tapi semalam. whoa!

cik N : weh, aku pening kepala la. kejap nak jadi macam ni. kejap nak jadi macam tu. pening betul la dgn diri aku ni. *confused
saya : aah la. pernah jugak. akhir-akhir ni ada jugak jadi camtu. kejap rasa nak pakai jubah. kejap rasa nak pakai jeans. kejap rasa nak pakai tudung labuh, kejap rasa*sigh
cik N : haaa betul tu! kadang-kadang rasa nak pakai tudung biasa je. aku rasa kita dalam confusion state la. hishh *annoyed
saya : hmm aahla. kenapa baru skrg aku perasan ye. *nodding

yes readers. inilah yang dikatakan dgn mencari identiti.

rupa-rupanya baru sekarang saya rasa ye. ingatkan dulu lagi dah pass. kes perasan bagus la ni. :')

so that's it. kekeliruan dalam mencari identiti.

dalam situasi ini, persekitaran sgt penting dan berpengaruh besar!

soothing

and jangan ingat dah tua bangka ni takde dah masalah dalam mencari identiti diri. i am 20 right now! :)

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assalamu'alaikum,

kita adalah satu jasad yang terbentuk mengikut persekitaran. sebab tu bayi dikatakan ibarat sehelai kain putih yang suci. apa dan bagaimana persekitaran itulah yang membentuk personaliti kita.

based on theory by Erik Erikson, there are 8 stages of psychosocial development. kita semua akan tempuhi setiap peringkat ni, bezanya sama ada kita berjaya atau gagal di setiap peringkat. sudah tentu, bila kita berjaya tempuh, personaliti kita yg terbentuk tu akan jadi personaliti yg berkualiti. nampaknya, sesi tutorial pagi td memberi impak yg besar kepada sy kerana ia menjadi entry for today. hehe

okay, apa 8 teori tu?

1. trust vs mistrust (birth to about 18 months)
2. autonomy vs shame & doubt (18 months to about 3 years)
3. initiative vs guilt (3 years to about 5 years)
4. industry vs inferiority (5 years to about 13 years)
5. identity vs confusion (13 years to abt 21 years)
6. intimacy vs isolation (21 years to 40 years)
7. generativity vs stagnation (40 years to 60 years)
8. integrity vs despair (abt 60 years to death)

so, basically, parents play a huge role! to make sure that their children will pass all the stages.

contohnya, peringkat yg pertama. inilah peringkat yg paling penting. pada tahap ini, baby sgt bergantung to their caregivers. the presence of parents is very important. when feeding the baby as the example. the baby just able to cry if he/she got hungry right? baby cuma tahu express kehendak dia, iaitu dia lapar and should be fed. kalau ibu dia tiada, the baby will develop the feeling of mistrust in his/her self. dan sebaliknya, if the baby pass this stage of psychosocial development, he/she will feel safe and secure in the world.

u see? the impacts are very big right? :)

okay, i will continue later. this subject is very interesting!

selamat menunaikan solat fardhu maghrib kepada muslimin, tak kira di mana jua anda berada! :)

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assalamu'alaikum,

Before u read this, please look at yourself. Can you see the surrounding clearly? Do you have friends around you? Do you got the same background compared to those of your pretty friends? Ok, that's fine.

This thing happens to each of us. Its whether you noticed it or not. Its kind of peculiar actually. I don't know why I take this thing seriously.

Imagine as you are the kid, who are sitting at the corner of the table. Staring at 'something' belonging to your friend. As you hope that 'thing' would belong to u too, but the fact is, you would never got it. Do you would rather be jealous or just persuade yourself? 

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assalamu'alaikum,

hi to all readers! :) *perasan ade readers. hehe*

ermm, dah lama rasanya tak memberi sesuatu yg berguna. Kenapa ya? Mungkin saya lebih kerap follow the flow instead of make something out of it. Its kind of waste. *sigh*

Eh btw, masih belum terlambat kan utk saya mengucapkan Salam EidulFitri, semoga kita kembali kepada fitrah yg baik-baik sahaja setelah sebulan menjalani bulan tarbiah, Ramadhan. Ameen. :)


Detik berjalan dgn sangat pantas. Setiap hari kita disibukkan dgn pekerjaan masing-masing. Especially student, dengan assignment, homework, and all readings. Pejam celik pejam celik dah habis setahun. Dan saya pun dah menjejak ke tahun 2. Alhamdulillah. :)


Actually, saya ada visit a few of my friend's blog. They struggle in medicine too, and they managed to blog academically. Sy sgt cemburu. :(

 
As time passes, i noticed some differences. Yep, perbezaan. Saya nampak semua perkara berbeza. Baik dari perkara makro sehinggalah ke mikro. Maksud saya, makro (perkara yang besar) ialah dr segi individual, and mikro (perkara yang kecil) ialah hati.

Ergh, saya tahu, hati saya pun lemah. :(

Kita boleh define setiap manusia yang kita jumpa all the way through out our life, tapi ingat, kita takkan boleh define what their heart is. The fact is, we are very easy to judge.  Involuntarily.

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assalamu'alaikum,


Do you ever feel like a plastic bag  
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?  

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin  
Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?

Do you ever feel already buried deep?  
Six feet under screams, but no one seems to hear a thing  

Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you?

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine  
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby, you're a firework  
Come on, show 'em what you're worth

Make 'em go, oh, oh, oh  
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework  
Come on, let your colors burst  

Make 'em go, oh, oh, oh  
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

You don't have to feel like a waste of space  
You're original, cannot be replaced  

If you only knew what the future holds  
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed  
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road  

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow  
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine  
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth

Make 'em go, oh, oh, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework  
Come on, let your colors burst  

Make 'em go, oh, oh, oh  
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

Boom, boom, boom  
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon  
It's always been inside of you, you, you  
And now it's time to let it through

'Cause baby you're a firework  
Come on, show 'em what you're worth  

Make 'em go, oh, oh, oh  
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework  
Come on, let your colors burst   

Make 'em go, oh, oh, oh  
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

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assalamu'alaikum,

saya benci orang yang tak adil. tahu arahkan sahaja. konon arahan itu utk semua. tapi dia tak buat pun. susah sangat ke nak bertanggungjawab? umur 20 tahun tapi perangai mcm darjah 2. semua org ada mood malas, tp agak-agak la. cakap pandai, tapi buatnya tidak. hampeh.


*maaf atas bahasa yang kasar. sekian, terima kasih!

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assalamu'alaikum,

stay positive.

don't stress too much, things have a way of working themselves out.

long talks fix a lot of things. and if not, long walks or good books might work.

things will make more sense in the morning.

all good adventures begin by getting out of the house.

being brave is really hard sometimes.

all we can do is keep breathing.

smile! :)

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assalamu'alaikum,

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