[22 wishes]

i am 22 after all

assalamu'alaikum,

Today we, most of my batch-mates had remedial for OSCE. We already had 11 or 12 stations yesterday and I stucked for two stations; the intramuscular injection as well as wound suturing.

Yeah, I was sooo nervous so I hold the needle-holder wrongly and Dr. B recognized that. Dang. However she makes me even more trembling .

After 9 minutes, I finished the task, to suture a 3cm cut wound and she said, "Do you know what is your mistake?"

Silence.

Of course I don't have courage to speak.

"You should not touch the sterile drape"

and I'm really worried if I can be failed because of that reason.

A fail in remedial OSCE meaning I have to repeat all stations for next years. It is really scared-me-to-death.

So I return home with sorrow and grieve. Helpless. Heartless. I called my mum, she asked me to be patient and strong. He sent SMSs , gave some motivation-speech. His mum also do the same thing and she taught me a du'aa.

"Hasbiyallah, 'alaihi tawakkaltu wa huwa rabbul 'arsyil 'azhim"

Then, I logged in my facebook account, and found this;

tawakkul (trusting and relying on Allah) is realizing that our Protector has a plan for us. Tawakkul is having complete trust that Allah’s plan is the best plan. Tawakkul is having full faith that Allah will take care of you—even when things look impossible. (read here)

and leading me to;

Tawwakul is not an act of the limbs—it is an act of the heart. And so while the limbs are striving hard, the heart is completely reliant on Allah. This means whatever the outcome of the limbs’ striving, the heart will be completely satisfied, knowing that it is the flawless decision of Allah.

But in order to reach this level, one must hold on to hope, strive with the limbs, and let go with the heart. (read here)

What can I say now, Ya Allah, please stay with me..

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assalamu'alaikum,

sekarang hanya tinggal satu lagi hari sabtu sebelum exam-week, hari ni dah petang, so tak termasuk dalam kiraan okay. huhu masa camni la selalu terpsycho bila tgk org lain study. sy takut sgt2, sbb senior kata, neuro paling susah! T___T

exam 3 minggu, kemudian cuti seminggu. kan best kalau dapat balik rumah. *daydreaming*

ok, actually ada sesuatu yg mahu diluahkan.

semalam, bersamaan hari jumaat, sy menghadiri satu majlis ilmu ; Taklim-Muwassofat Tarbiyyah.

ada 10 points Muwassofat Tarbiyyah ni :

1. Aqidah yang sejahtera
2. Ibadah yang sahih
3. Akhlak yang mantap
4. Mampu bekerja
5. Berpengetahuan luas
6. Tubuh yang cergas
7. Mujahadah
8. Teratur urusannya
9. Sangat menghargai masa
10. Bermanfaat kpd org lain

Sang penyampai menyampaikan dgn sangat bersemangat setiap point tersebut. tetapi, pada satu detik, sy terdiam dan terfikir sejenak saat beliau menceritakan tentang kisah Rasulullah sallalahu alaihi wassalam yang beribadah saban malam. diceritakan, (mesti semua org dah tahu kisah ini, tp sy nak cite jugak! :D)

diceritakan bahawa, ada sahabat yg bertanya kpd baginda, mengapa baginda melakukan ibadah tersebut,  (solat malam) sedangkan baginda telah dijamin syurga. dan, dikisahkan juga, pada solat malam yg dilakukan oleh baginda Rasulullah sallalahu alaihi wassalam itu juga lengkap dgn bacaan 2-3 surah yg panjang di setiap rakaat. menakjubkan. betapa cinta nya baginda utk beribadah dan mengabdi pada Yang Esa, Allahu akbar.

baginda menjawab, salahkah jika aku ingin menzahirkan rasa syukur kpd Allah?

yes, ibadah sebagai tanda syukur.

tanda betapa berterima kasihnya kita pada Allah. kehidupan adalah kasih sayangNya. nafas adalah hadiah yg paling berharga. dan, islam adalah nikmat yg nyata.

logikkah jika kita, manusia yg kerdil, utk tidak berterima kasih pd Sang Pencipta?

T__________T

"terima kasih" ialah satu kalimah ajaib.

tp pada Tuhan, cukupkah hanya sekadar kalimah?

T_________T




ps's :
; ilmu memang ada di mana-mana, soalnya, cetusan hati kecil yg mengajak utk berfikir jarang hadir.
; kenapa sekarang Liyana suka berpantun? *saja nk test dia whether she read tis or not.ehehe
; sekarang ni dah ada kaki retort yg report pada mak bhw sy homesick! >.<
; i am merely a loser blogger coz i kept on staring the screen to think the last words. ahaha

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assalamu'alaikum,

cikgu saya cakap ;

sesuatu ilmu yang berkat adalah ilmu yg akan memberi manafaat kepada semua bkn hanya kpd individu tersebut tetapi pada org di sekelilingnya juga, ilmu itu menjadi teman ketika sunyi, mengingatkan ketika lalai dan menjadi pendorong mengejar kejayaan bkn shj di dunia tapi juga akhirat.

we keep on studying without knowing the true intention and aim. it must be pure and totally based on Mardhatillah.

u know what, the nawaitu of studying  keep on arising only during exams. why? maybe because it is the closest time to Him. well. we only seek His help and attention in hard-times.

*sigh*

astaghfirullah. may Allah forgive me.

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assalamu'alaikum,

just want to share a paragraph from a book entitled Life is an Open Secret.

".... more effort means more hard work. u have to work hard, set goals, find ways to achieve them, be committed, network with people, face adversity, overcome challenges, go against the odds, sleep less, read more, and spend time at night working. u have to walk, stumble, stand up again, fall into holes, get out of the holes, walk some more, climb a hill, get up again, continue walking, trip, bandage the wound, and keep walking. this goes on and on until u reach ur intended destination..."

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assalamu'alaikum,

nak jerit boleh x?

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assalamu'alaikum,

ok, i'll go straight.
 
bila dah dekat seminggu dok karang ayat berbunga bunga tp in the end of the day, jadi draft aje. haihh. tetiba teringin nk belajar buat puisi. eceh!

 cases for coming up exam (oral presentation) :

• Vaginal Discharge
• Cervical Carcinoma
• Menstrual Syndrome
• Pregnancy
• Simple Endometrial Hyperplasia
• Breast Cancer
• Infertility
• Hydatidiform Mole
• Ovarian Cystadenoma
• Tubal Obstruction
• Breech Presentation
• Premature Rupture of Membrane
• now is in the middle of tutorial discussion

and what else?

here we go, the freaky Skills Lab (OSCE) :

*kelam kabut mencari buku. dalam beg?*

• Communication Skills
• History Taking on Dermatovenerology
• Physical Examination on Dermatovenerology
• Pap Smear
• Gynaecological History Taking
• Gynaecological Examination
• Obstetric History Taking
• Obstetric Examination
• Infection Prevention 
• Vital sign
• Neonatal Resuscitation
• Gestational Age
• Anthropometry (baru buat semalam :D)
• Child Immunization
• Breast Examination

how exciting my life are! -_-"

actually, baru I sedar betapa banyaknya yg perlu diulangkaji. so, bagus jugak kan post this kind of things. :)

go go go!

ps : wish me luck friends.

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